the pleasure of being alone

I have a soft point for being alone, I kind of have a love and hate relationship with be with myself. I love having a caring and special mate in my life and I am grateful for that, and even tough I love spending time alone, eating directly from the pan, play soft and sad music, write, light my salt lights.. this makes me happy, missing your sweet half, it is a bittersweet feeling, like pain and pleasure together..

But I am sure that when I will turn down the volume, clean the pan and turn of the lights I will miss him to death, hoping that tomorrow arrives very fast! Luckily enough work meeting out of town are rare!

Good night!

Get the mood by listening: such grate heights by Iron and wine

EDITING LIFE GOALS

I have reached a point in my life where I am re-writing, re-scheduling, editing my life goals, my life purpose, my inspirations and beliefs system.

I used to do maps about what I wanted about my life, I wrote what was that I really wanted in this lifetime it was all a little fuzzy and uncertain, but now I can see clearly things... I know what I want, I have a dream and I will do everything within my power to accomplish it. 

I am realizing now that I have missed the point my whole life, taking roads that were not made for me, and feeling guilty for not really wanting to take them. But I thought that wanting to do take a path different from the one others wanted for me or that I decided was good and acceptable (auto-caging myself) was a BAD THING, I thought I was a bad person or a lunatic to feeling I was meant do different things, to BE DIFFERENT. 

I was so blind and so deep in my castle of glass that I did not know what I wanted in my life, nor who I was. 

So now that I can see more clearly I think I am going to edit my life goals in all area but especially in CAREER, writing a new career path, and feeling that I CAN DO IT, YES, I CAN DO THIS!

Want to enter in the mood? listen to: up against the wall by Peter Bjorn and john

Time flies

"Time flies. Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds. All any of us wants is more time. Time to stand up. Time to grow up. Time to let go. Time."

Grey's Anatomy: time has come today episode

Seems to me that today I have lost my inspiration to write blog posts, luckily enough my book characters are still invading my mind and driving me insane, that's good, it means that I will write more pages.

It is the second time I started this blog post, the first title was "things we want, things we are" but I realized that now, the only think I would like is MORE TIME, more time to do what I like:

= write my blog

+ write my book

+ exercise 

+ meditate

+ relax

+ read new books (like, "fifty shades of gray" Am I the only one who did not read it?)

+ cook 

+ time for my self

+ time to paint

+ time to get shopping for paint

+ time to play piano and guitar

don't get me wrong, it is not that I don't have of time to do that, I have (maybe expect for piano and guitar), but it seems that because I WANT to do it all I must do all that with hurry and it like I do that on automatic pilot.. 

Maybe time is just a mental illusion, and I just have to slow and enjoy what I am currently doing instead of thinking of the next task I have to do or I want to do. 

I am lucky, I just need to enjoy more my life.. =)

All I want for my future is looking back and have not regrets on what I have done with the time of my life.

Tay

You can enter in the mood of this post with: Someone like you: Adele