again about job

All my life now is involved in getting a new job. SOON.

I hope that my experience of losing my job will be helpful for other people in the same situation..

I really have a job, that starts in two and a half weeks, BUT

1. it takes an hour to get there
2. they pay me the half of what I earn now (and it is not so much)
3. work time seems to be from 9 to 8 (whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat???)

BUT  (again) it is better that nothing, with this I will pay the rent, and the money to get there. So I have this two weeks to find a new life-friendly position.

So this was/is my plan

1. Believe I can find something better in a short time (really believe it)
2. Let go my negative thinking to keep enthusiastic and motivated
3. Send resume (a LOT), like 6 a day
4. Call the companies I want to work to and ask if they need someone (all of them)
5. Ask to everyone if they know about new job positions for my work experience.

I will keep you updated....

bye!!!

life changing days

Sometimes in life you feel safe, you think you have found your peace of mind.. you have your job, you start to write your book, you have an amazing boyfriend, you eat healthy and you exercise because this job that you found is perfect for time-life.

Then someone (the Hr manager for instance) arrives and tells you "due to the economical crisis and in-spite of your good job you are fired".

So here I go again

submitting CV

waking up anxious in the morning

feeling unsafe.

But no matter what I will turn this around, I will find something even better... and then I will look for the positive:

• I already had a job interview
• the same day I was told that I was no longer necessary I got another offer (even if payd the half)
• this can be a new opportunity
• they gave me 1 month notice so I have 2 more pay checks on my way...

pray for me! 

Bye!

OCTOBER READINGS, TV SHOWS AND FAV

Books

1. Twilight - Stephanie Mayer
2. Fifty shades of Gray/Black/Freed - E. L. James
3. Change your genetic destiny (genotype diet) - Peter D'Adamo
4. Juice slim - James Vale
5. The Map - Boni Lonnsburry
6. Istant Self - Hypnoses - Forbes Blair
7. The country diary of an edwardian lady - Edith Holden

Movies

1. The twilight saga: twilight
2. The twilight saga: breaking down pt1 and 2
3. Queen of the damned
4. The host (not finished boring)
5. Bling Ring

Tv shows

1. Grey's Anatomy
2. Vampire Diaries
3. Sons of Anarchy

FAVORITES!

• Brand new FOUNTAIN PEN Shneider + sepia ink

• The country diary of an edwardian lady gifted to me by my mother in law
• Zara dress with no back for gala things ;)
• My brand new Philip Juicer
• home made deodorant (find the recipe here)

shades... of Gray

I am reading Fifty shades of Gray E. L. James, I decided to get it because it was like a fenomena and because I discovered that the author was a Twilight fun and she was writing fanfiction of the spirkling vampires books under the name of icequen, and I really liked the yellow eyes vamp books

I am at chapter 21 now, it is clear that the author got her inspirations for characters and some scenes from the well known Stephanie Mayer saga. 

Seems to me that Fifty shades of Gray is the (soft, until now) porn version of Twilight without vamps in it. Kidding. There are lot of similarity between Isabella - bella - swan and Anastasia - ana - Steel and Control Freak Edward and Control Freak Christian Gray. 

I am looking forward to read some Twilight fun fiction written by James -  Snowqueen's Icedragon

From my personal point of view, I don't think I would like to give my self to a dark and twisted breath taking billionare that get pleasure in punishing me, in exchange of laptops, cars and clothes, that feel to me like luxury hooker. It is true that Anastasia totally fell for him, and it is also obvious that he is fond of her but still, he is a perv that wants to punish me.. 

By the way, now that they are making the movie, Jax of Sons of Anarchy has Crhistian Gray aka Sir in my mind

Did you read the book and liked it?

Time flies

"Time flies. Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds. All any of us wants is more time. Time to stand up. Time to grow up. Time to let go. Time."

Grey's Anatomy: time has come today episode

Seems to me that today I have lost my inspiration to write blog posts, luckily enough my book characters are still invading my mind and driving me insane, that's good, it means that I will write more pages.

It is the second time I started this blog post, the first title was "things we want, things we are" but I realized that now, the only think I would like is MORE TIME, more time to do what I like:

= write my blog

+ write my book

+ exercise 

+ meditate

+ relax

+ read new books (like, "fifty shades of gray" Am I the only one who did not read it?)

+ cook 

+ time for my self

+ time to paint

+ time to get shopping for paint

+ time to play piano and guitar

don't get me wrong, it is not that I don't have of time to do that, I have (maybe expect for piano and guitar), but it seems that because I WANT to do it all I must do all that with hurry and it like I do that on automatic pilot.. 

Maybe time is just a mental illusion, and I just have to slow and enjoy what I am currently doing instead of thinking of the next task I have to do or I want to do. 

I am lucky, I just need to enjoy more my life.. =)

All I want for my future is looking back and have not regrets on what I have done with the time of my life.

Tay

You can enter in the mood of this post with: Someone like you: Adele 

hint on how life/the universe/whatever you want to callit works

I suffer from  bruxism ( a condition where you clench your jaw or grind your teeth at night, waking up with neck pain tooth ache, head ache or a combination) the causes can vary from case to case from problems in closing your mouth properly to repressed emotions and parasites in your belly. I was checked, I had not problems in my mouth nor the parasites, so it must be a thing with my emotions or my relationship to stress. I actually don't feel particularly stressed out: in this site--> Core Energetics, about core energetics are explained what the causes could be and how to deal with it. I think it can give a good explanation of the condition and some info as a start.
In this period I am waking up with my mouth clenched and my neck muscles very tense, and a terrible headache that fade in the mid of the morning and get worst at about six .

So yesterday I was searching for  someone who cured himself from bruxism so that I can get some good hint and do something more than using my bite. Meanwhile I was reading a beautiful post of one of my fav blog, Sarah Wilson blog, in which she was talking self hypnosis (you can read here) and decided to go to Amazon to get one good book about the subject and in my lunch time I bought this one (I will post my review on it). Because I had not a wifi connection and no mobile line I totally forgot about it. This morning I suddenly realized that I had a whole new book to read and no time because I had to go to work so I quickly  red the summary and there it was a self hypnoses script on how to stop grinding your teeth.

This is a good case of serendipity, I was not looking for heal of bruxism but enjoy myself on a new knowledge and I found one possible answer..

BTW I will keep you updated if self hypnosis is yay or nay for me

listening: band of horses, Factory
Tay

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