Nothing is real everything is permitted

This will NOT be a post about JOB, but a post about JOY...

About the small things in life that give us joy even in bad days..

On Sunday we went grocery shopping at the mall (thank you God that in Rome everything is open on Sunday) and we stopped in a used game shop. Fren bought one game for me (Assassins Creed), one for him (don't remember what) and one for us (Army of Two).

I like to play video games, I always had, since Tomb Rider came out.. but when I started to work I suddenly stopped, due to a lot of things I want to do.. Actually I think I remember the day I stopped. It was the day when I bought guitar hero for my wii, and realized that with all the time that I was spending at the time I could actually learn to play guitar.. And I sold my guitar hero kit and bought a real guitar, a red Fender Stratocaster and decided to take classes.. So I pud aside games and did other things for a while (like two years) until yesterday.. I have spent 4 hr playing Assassins Creed.. and totally loved it! I forgot how was good to play.. and how my neck reacts to the stiff position..

I particularly loved the motto of the game: NOTHING IS REAL, EVERYTHING IS PERMITTED.. I think I will make this my own motto, but with a variation

NOTING IS REAL, EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE

Seems like a lot similar to my philosophy!


Beside my joy in playing games, any one get disturbed sleep after a lot of time in front of a game, or it is just me?

again about job

All my life now is involved in getting a new job. SOON.

I hope that my experience of losing my job will be helpful for other people in the same situation..

I really have a job, that starts in two and a half weeks, BUT

1. it takes an hour to get there
2. they pay me the half of what I earn now (and it is not so much)
3. work time seems to be from 9 to 8 (whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat???)

BUT  (again) it is better that nothing, with this I will pay the rent, and the money to get there. So I have this two weeks to find a new life-friendly position.

So this was/is my plan

1. Believe I can find something better in a short time (really believe it)
2. Let go my negative thinking to keep enthusiastic and motivated
3. Send resume (a LOT), like 6 a day
4. Call the companies I want to work to and ask if they need someone (all of them)
5. Ask to everyone if they know about new job positions for my work experience.

I will keep you updated....

bye!!!

the pleasure of being alone

I have a soft point for being alone, I kind of have a love and hate relationship with be with myself. I love having a caring and special mate in my life and I am grateful for that, and even tough I love spending time alone, eating directly from the pan, play soft and sad music, write, light my salt lights.. this makes me happy, missing your sweet half, it is a bittersweet feeling, like pain and pleasure together..

But I am sure that when I will turn down the volume, clean the pan and turn of the lights I will miss him to death, hoping that tomorrow arrives very fast! Luckily enough work meeting out of town are rare!

Good night!

Get the mood by listening: such grate heights by Iron and wine

shades... of Gray

I am reading Fifty shades of Gray E. L. James, I decided to get it because it was like a fenomena and because I discovered that the author was a Twilight fun and she was writing fanfiction of the spirkling vampires books under the name of icequen, and I really liked the yellow eyes vamp books

I am at chapter 21 now, it is clear that the author got her inspirations for characters and some scenes from the well known Stephanie Mayer saga. 

Seems to me that Fifty shades of Gray is the (soft, until now) porn version of Twilight without vamps in it. Kidding. There are lot of similarity between Isabella - bella - swan and Anastasia - ana - Steel and Control Freak Edward and Control Freak Christian Gray. 

I am looking forward to read some Twilight fun fiction written by James -  Snowqueen's Icedragon

From my personal point of view, I don't think I would like to give my self to a dark and twisted breath taking billionare that get pleasure in punishing me, in exchange of laptops, cars and clothes, that feel to me like luxury hooker. It is true that Anastasia totally fell for him, and it is also obvious that he is fond of her but still, he is a perv that wants to punish me.. 

By the way, now that they are making the movie, Jax of Sons of Anarchy has Crhistian Gray aka Sir in my mind

Did you read the book and liked it?

New adventure

Hi guys!

Yesterday night I was reading one of my fav novels and the story was sad, the boy left the poor girl to her sake and I was feeling sad too, I got really sad reading the book (yes sad, sad, saaaaad). I think that just for giving strong feelings it was a good book. By the way my boyfriend asked me "why are you looking sad?"  I answered that even if I love my life I would like some magic, mystery and meet some supernatural being, even tough I know that such tings does not exist in reality. Of course I am aware that lots of times reality goes beyond fantasy, but come on, you will never meet a vampire (I mean a real one, that burns in the sun), or a fairy or, I don't know, Shreck! And so he said to me: "then create it! you are full of fantasy, most of the time it seems you seem to live on Mars, so write this damn book! Maybe you can also earn money from it."

At first I was like, yeah right, me? All the books that I love has already been written or movies have been made, and beautiful intriguing characters taken, you know, Vampires (my fav, especially Charlaine Harris), Fairies, Witches, Magicians, oder worlds, Star wars... So I got to sleep and forgot about it.. But this morning my mind took over and I started to fantasize about charterers, location, plot.. It all came super natural (and supernatural, sorry this one was so tempting) to me that I almost fell in love with my she charterer! So I started to write this morning and I am feeling happy because i am loving it! Worst case scenario I would have had some great time for my self.

If you are wandering and a lil worried too, don't I will write it in my own language.. I am not that good in English to write a book, maybe neither to write a blog ;)

Of course and like always I will keep you updated!

You can read me with this song: starting over: feat Ben Bridwell

Presentations /Presentazioni

Italian Version

hey!
Sono Tay e ho deciso di cominciare un blog perchè voglio condividere con voi il mio viaggio volto a migliorare la mia vita. Amo leggere, trovare nuovi modi per espandere la mia visione della vita e ovviamente di crescere in ogni area della mia vita.
Non sono un dottore, una psicologa o un coach. Sono una ragazza come tante altre che cerca di migliorare la qualità della propria vita, e di capire com'è veramente la vita, così come la conosciamo. Non darò consigli su come dovete vivere la vostra vita, non cercherò di convincervi di niente, condividerò solo cosa funziona per me e cosa no.
Così, condividerò con voi le tecniche e la conoscenza che troverò lungo il mio percorso, raccontandovi quello che ha funzionato meglio per me!

P.s. amo scrivere in Inglese, ma finchè non deciderò quale lingua usare per questo blog continuerò due versioni!

Entra nel mood: forever young (Sons of Anarchy Soundtrack) 




English Version
Hi there!

I am Tay, and I decided to start this blog because I want to share with you guys my journey to improve my life. I love to read, to find new ways to expand my vision of life and to grow of course in every area of my life.

I am not a doctor, a psychologist or a coach, I am just a regular girl trying  to improve the quality of her  life  and to get what is real about life as we know it.  I will not give you advice on how you should live your life,  I won't try to convince you about anything, I will just share what worked for me and what did not.

So I will share with you guys the techniques and knowledge that I will acquire in my journey telling you what worked best for me. 

P.s.: sorry for my English! I hope that it will get better in time =)

If you want to enter in the mood you can read this post with this song: forever young (Sons of Anarchy Soundtrack)